Thoughtful Thursday- The Rock

Hi! It's Jilly. I've been talking with a lot of people who are disappointed with the election results. I've been feeling badly about it, too. I worry about what is happening in our country. I worry about the discord, division, and contention I've been seeing. I worry about our little family and if my husband will be able to get a job after residency and make enough to both pay off his student loans AND feed us!!

But, this scripture from the Book of Mormon keeps coming to my mind. (It's a great book, if you haven't read it. Get a free copy HERE.)

Things might be hard. Satan might throw everything he has at us. But, if we trust in the Lord, everything will work out. We will be taken care of. We just need to pray for strength and guidance, then follow that guidance we receive and do all we can do, knowing that the Lord will take care of the rest. There is no better foundation we can build our lives on than our Savior Jesus Christ. 

For this free printable of Helaman 5:12, visit LDS Printables to download it from her site.

Thoughtful Thursday- Be extraordinary!

Hi! It's Jilly. I was so touched by the responses I received to last week's Thoughtful Thursday post. It was hard to push that "publish" button! It is so comforting to realize I'm not the only crazy one out there! Although every day isn't perfect, I'm feeling a lot better. I think writing down my feelings helped a lot, along with all the awesome encouragement I got from all of you. So, thank you for that!

As promised, this week's Thoughtful Thursday post will be much lighter. Less "blah, blah" from me. ;) Let's see the awesome quote, shall we?

Ever since I heard this quote I have liked it. It helps me remember to be more consistent, which is a struggle for me. It's like they say...old habits die hard! But, by being faithful and following the Lord we can have a wonderful life and do things we never dreamed we would have been able to do! *cough, cough* triplets *cough, cough*

Sky at Capital B was sweet enough to make this awesome graphic you can print out for free and display to help you remember that YOU can be extraordinary! Go HERE to see the awesome colors it comes in. :)

Thoughtful Thursday

Hi! It's Jilly. I've decided to start a new series here on the blog called "Thoughtful Thursday". Every Thursday I will post a quote. Sometimes I will include my thoughts about it. Other times I will just post the quote. I think it will be a great way to get to know my readers better...and myself.

So, here we go!



This quote sums up a lot of what has been weighing on my mind lately. I feel sooooo inadequate all the time it's not even funny. I feel like I am at the bottom of the loser totem pole and can't seem to do anything right. I'm just a huge mess! It's like..oh, how do I say this...it's like there are all these areas of my life that I have to keep track of- wife, mother, homemaker, friend, etc, etc- and I can't do it! I am emotionally exhausted. I can barely bring myself to do anything. I only get out of bed because I have to. It's like I'm SO far behind that I feel like trying to catch up is fruitless. I know that not doing anything will only get me farther behind, but my brain just says, "Meh." to everything.

I have a good life. I know I do. I have been blessed SO much, and have SO many things to be grateful for. But, I just feel like there's this picture of my life that other people see, and it looks like everything is awesome, but I don't feel awesome. I have three great kids, a loving husband who puts up with way more crap from me than he should have to, great friends...the list could go on and on. But yet, I feel so disconnected from it.

AND, the thought that someone looking in would think I'm perfect because of the way my life looks make me feel sick to my stomach. I hate the thought that someone would ever compare themselves to me and think I have it all together, because I am one piece of straw away from breaking that poor camel's back! I would want to grab that person by the shoulders, shake them, and say, "No! It's not like that at all! You have NO idea how screwed up I am!"

This quote talks about comparing ourselves to others, which is definitely a problem. But, I think my biggest problem is comparing myself to ME. And, I don't mean "me", as in my current self. I mean "me" as in the "me" I think I should and could be if only I was better at being me. Does that even make any sense? It's like I have a picture in my mind of how I should be at this point in my life, and how I could be if I would just grow up and make better choices, manage my time better, etc. But, because I am weak and lame I don't, so I'm not. How can you compete with the vision of what you could be?

I know that the only way to move towards becoming the person I could be is to change my habits, make good choices, and get better a little bit each day. But, I'm so overwhelmed that I just want to curl up in a little ball. It's like I feel paralyzed. I've tried to explain this to my hubby, but I'm not sure he totally gets what I'm saying. He just gets out his "toolbox" and starts giving me suggestions. "Well, maybe you could fix that problem by _____" or "Do or do not, there is no try" or "Things won't get better if you don't do anything at all. It will just get worse." I know, I know! But, but, but...I can't! I feel like I am the lamest of the lame. Why do other people my age, and younger, have this stuff figured out, and I'm over here in a big 'ole mess?!

Am I the only one who has ever felt this way, or do other people feel like that? I think I'm losing my mind! Does any of this make any sense at all?

Thanks for "listening" to my trip to Crazytown. Don't worry...next week's Thoughtful Thursday will be a lighter fare! I've just had a lot on my mind lately, and I feel like I will burst at the seams if I don't let it out!